I know with each lesson or process which happens in my life, I cant stop but think of you all. The team, the collective ... youz guyz. :) You were a huge part in making the shift in my life. You gave me a nudge I didn't know I needed at the time.
The reason I bring this up yet again, is because I finally get it. At least I am pretty sure I do.
You gave me a fishing pole, some bait and showed me where the waters were to fish. You provided me with the basics of hooking the bait on and casting my line to see what I would catch. I learned how to fish, but not the "art" of it. But not the true understanding of it all.
I wanted to dive into the water and grab what I could. I wanted so hard to understand everything. I took and took as much as I could and was grateful in ways its hard to explain from a human perspective.
Yes, I beat myself up a lot, because I was confused and I was remembering things from a soul level, which didn't make sense to me then, but they do now. Or at least I am getting a better understanding.
I understand more and more about why its OK to be my own person and to not be worried or fearful about being a part of the "in crowd" anymore.
I understand more and actually I feel the signatures.
I get so much more of what you were "teaching" and I will always remember you all fondly and with love.
So, yes, I praise you. I give thanks to you all the time. I love you all so much for everything you took the time out to do and give and be for me. But not just for me, for all of us. To be of service to others and not of self. You didn't have to put up with all that you did from many of us. But you did.
You were all there for me when I needed you the most and yet so gently, softly, harshly and lovingly, you all gave and gave when I didn't understand why you did. Thank you.
Please always know you will always be remembered by all of us who were "close" to you all. Know how much you all meant to us. Know that I am so very grateful and appreciative beyond words to you all.
It was all about the growth process.
I'm trusting the process.
Love to you all
~Mz C.
