The place I am staying is filled with positive in every corner. Plants, little notes of affirmations, calmness, no negative or worry. I no longer have to apologize for a dish sitting in the sink or the reason the recycles are not taken out yet. There is only truth, joy, happiness, no ego, Here and Now. Positive. I have placed all my stickies back up with all the positive I have learned over the past 6 months. The ones I wrote about not giving comfort the one day. Ive gone past that. I have a few books and knick knacks on the shelves here and other assorted things. So it has my touch, yet its still her home. She approved and said, this is the way it should be.
The house is dubbed "Healing House". Rightly so. The woman who owns the home helps others succeed in life and get back on their feet.
There is a reason I am in this home. She told me, she is willing to "teach" when it feels right. It could be during a conversation she and I are having or something comes to her mind.
Everything that was forthcoming to all this, it makes sense now.
I promise to those who might read this. They will know who they are. I promise you I did not lie to you. Your pushing me away has made me realize how much I relied on you. I should have been relying on me. But I looked to you as perhaps a daughter would to her own father. Or a sister to another sister, friend to a friend. Sometimes I needed advice for the journey I was learning about, so I could become a better person. I want you to know your friendship is missed and I love you and thank you for the lessons. But most importantly, I did NOT lie to you.
I am grateful and blessed to be in a place of peace, with a roof over my head.
I love you and thank you ...
~Jules
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