A lesson learned thanks to 4Ceibus

It all began as I was waking up and I was in a wonderful mood yesterday morning. The day before, I had a great Sunday with the church and learning how to speak with my guides and their guides to speak through me. Its a wonderful learning experience for me, because it seems natural and the right thing to do. It works for me. So I felt my energy was up and vibrations high, was a wonderful feeling.

Later in the eve, the wonderful beings that they are posted something from 4Ceibus. I love reading her writings and looking at her pictures of her garden, paintings and glassware's. She is amazingly creative in a way that I am not. I admire her for this. It seems so natural to her.

Last week she lost a valuable family member and I understood her emotional state. I bonded with this woman for the first time in "knowing" her on twitter. When she wrote about her pets head in her hands ... I cried and I sent love to her. She said she felt it. I am glad, because it was sincere in every being of who I am. Recently my cat Jax was ill and I am not able to afford a vet, but the team at IQXS helped me through the process and we brought him back to health. So, I related with her pain.

So when the guys posted her new blog, I decided to peruse some of her older blogs. It had been awhile and thought it would be nice to catch up on them. I came to one which hit me pretty hard. I was not prepared for it. As I got closer to the bottom, there. THERE. "And I thought about Caffeinated Tree ....." Wait, pardon me?

As I read on and the only words which rang in my head and I saw over and over again were "I DO NOT LIKE HER..." I couldn't get any further than that. I could not read on. I was shocked and my heart sank. I cried for a moment and pondered what did I ever say to this person or do, because she doesn't know me. I took a minute and realized I needed to move on. I realized these were NOT my feelings or my words, why am I so upset about it? I allowed it to get to me.

Thank the divine for BH. He saw what I posted on twitter. He asked me if I really wanted to go there. I hadnt said anything mean about her post, or who it was, just I was shocked and hurt. He stopped me from perhaps falling deep into it. Apparently at that moment there was a lower energy vibration feeding off what I had just discovered. It was affecting me and my cat. The cat I just helped to save from an illness I still have no idea what it was. But I am grateful to all those who have helped with his healing and for the lesson I learned from it.

So as he is very much like a big brother and teacher, he told me to tap, EFT. He reminded me to keep in love and joy. Most of all to love myself. Which I do. I had realized as I read further on her blog she doesn't dislike me per say, but that maybe she is reminded of a time where she went through similar emotions, lessons, trials? And it is not an easy road to travel. We all walk in different shoes and all walk a different beat, but to not like someone because of it? But these are HER feelings and I allowed her feelings to hurt me. I do not have to be accepted by her or anyone. And this what I have learned from this.

So I tapped. And I understood this was a lesson. Thank you Ceibus for the lesson. I am a newb in regards to healing and talking with the guides and universe. I do not have the same responsibilities as others with children and owning a home. I am very much a child inside, but a loving child. I hope one day you will want to get to know me as a person. You do not have to like me as you stated, but to at least understand someone, I think that makes us better and helps us grow as individuals.

In my heart I hold you in high regard. I can truely say I love you as a person from what I DO know of you. BH told me this was a lesson and I needed to write you. It was easiest for me to tell it like a story and was the only way I could begin the relationship we do not have. I would hope next time you see something I am going through, to please send love. We all deal with pain differently and go through life differently. See me as me and perhaps what you did see was a part of you. Maybe that is the part of you that you need to love? To let that go?

Thank you for reading this and again for the lesson.

Sincerely,

Julie/Aka Caffeinatedtree